Many years ago, I embarked on an initiative to lose weight. I was very disciplined, but it seems that I have been falling off the bandwagon. Seriously, it has been tough for me to start everything again. I don’t know why. Every time I restart, I seem to be falling back. It is very demotivating.
There are so many excuses that I will come out with when I bring out this topic. I always baffled at how much my self discipline has degraded over the years. This, I attribute to me being way too comfortable. Being comfortable is good as I don’t have a lot of things to worry about. This resulted in a low-stress level. I tend to smile a lot because, really, I don’t have to worry about a lot of things.
Though, in reality – I am always worried about my health. Despite getting a clean bill of health from my doctor, there is this nagging thing behind my head. I always tell myself that I need to improve my health. I admit that weight is a struggle that I have gone thru for many years. And if I don’t do something about it, it will bite me at some point in time.
With all the technology in the world – Myfitnesspal, Carb Manager, Apple Watch, and many more, it still bogs down to a straightforward thing. DISCIPLINE.
I always pride myself on being a person who is organized, determined, and incredibility disciplined. There was a time in my life where I can wake up every morning at 5am. I will be working out the latest by 6am. But now – I seem to be waking up later, and will only start sweating it out at about 7.30am. Again – being comfortable pushing me to sleep more than I should, or perhaps watch Netflix more than an average person would do.
I still do not have a solution, but I guess – to be able to change, I need first to acknowledge that I have an issue. And the point is to run away from my comfort zone. It is ok to be uncomfortable. By doing this, I can push myself to be a better person.
The change should start now.